I just want to wish everyone a happy halloween and give ya a lil tidbit on what makes this day so special to me.

1 year ago today, after BJ and I first met on the 21st, he finally grew some balls and decides to call me with the cell number that my cousin gave him. He calls me during work to see what’s up and try to start a conversation. Somehow, trick-or-treating came up and we both agreed to go together. I got the directions to his house and there was our “first date”… or “friendship date”… i unno… whatever you guys want to title it. We went walking around the neighborhood for a while… i met his lil bro, marcos and his friend, trinity… and yea. It was a really great night. I’m happy I didn’t back out. Anyway, there’s always one thing that crosses my mind when i think about this day… “are you serious? trick-or-treating?!?!?” LMAO. I love you BJ.

Last night a friend and I had a really interesting conversation over the phone. We were talking about the gym and everyone inside of it. The reason the topic came up was because my boyfriend told me he doesn’t check out guys at the gym when he’s working out. LIAR! Oh buddha your such a bad liar! How in the world is that possible?!?! Muscle and looks is walking right by you! Of course you are going to stare. There’s no if, what, and thens about it. You could come up with any sad excuse you want, but the plain truth is, you were checking out the niggas in there. Whether your partner should be mad or not is up to the imagination, or whatever takes place during your masturbation… LOL.

I don’ t know if it’s just me, but when someone doesn’t call me and they are obligated to, i get pissed off as hell. Today in the computer lab, when I should had really been in class this girl got a phone call and started crying out of no where… i’m trying to concentrate on myspace and not be nosey but I hear an even LOUDER shriek and I get that weird irritating feeling going down my neck. BLAH! Do I do something?!? Normally I would, but then I heard her say “why didn’t you call me yesterday?” She was talking to her man and crying cause he didn’t call her for a day. She then said “I tried calling you so many times yesterday and you never picked up.”

HAHA. Nosey I know, but it was pretty interesting. If I was in her situation I would had say OH HELL NAH NIGGA, WHERE THE HELL YOU BEEN?!?! :-D Who actually cries about it? I mean, if i don’t get a phone call after a while I would sorta get a clue, but it was only a day. You don’t cry about it over a day, a week maybe, but not a day. If your gonna be upset minus well be mad and question the mofo! Something is seriously going on with the relationship if your gonna be so paranoid within a day notice. It’s funny how this had to happen to make me realize i’m just like her in a way. What do ya’ll think?!?

Ok, so one day, I was in class and a close friend of mine (who should have been paying attention to the lecture) notice that I was on myspace. To be exact, I was on my boyfriend’s myspace. He told me “that’s really fucked up!” I was like what?!?!? I DON’T GET IT! What’s fucked up? What’s so mess up about it? He’s my boyfriend, I have a right to check around, don’t I? I mean how many people out there don ‘t think it’s ok to check up on your boyfriend’s myspace… well, “check” isn’t quite the word, but log in every now and then to see who he recieves messages from, friend request from hoes and freaks and shit?!? I unno, it might just be me, but if I don’t know what my man is doing then i feel like i have no control. OH, and one more thing… he knows that i get onto his myspace. Shit, he even tried deleting some of my bulletins that I had posted under my own account. Any oppositions or comments? Be nice!

Happy Birthday Dad! On saturday my mom threw a little early birthday party for my dad. They were loud and drunk as always. :-) All in all, everyone was having a good time. BJ and I celebrated our monthiversary at six flags and then had dinner with the group. At the party, my parents really scared the shit out of me when they ask BJ to come over to them after their friends sang the Birthday Song. As you can see in the picture they look happy and yada yada. It brought a big smile to my face just to see BJ and my parents so close together. It made me wonder if they would infact, just maybe infact accept BJ for being gay? Or better yet, would they feel the same way about BJ once they find out that he’s been my boyfriend for the past 11 months!?!? Whatever the situation, I love this picture of them. It just gives me another sign of hope, false maybe, but it’s still hope. Anyhow, the really shocking part of the story was how my parents titled BJ as “son-in-law” in front of all their friends. Everyone just turned and stared at me! What are your opinions on this? Use euphemism please :-)

Yahoo recently created a “time capsule” in which anyone can contribute something meaningful (worth remembering) to them for the year 2006. They broke it into different categories such as fun, love, and etc. In about 19 days the page will be closed down and not reopened till 2020 in which it will displayed at the Smithsonian Museum in Washington D.C.. Knowing me, I decided to contribute something of my own. I don’t know if Yahoo will accept it or not but this is what i wrote:

“In the year 2006 on the month of November, I will have reached a 1 year long relationship with my boyfriend. During this 1 year course we have endured a lot of hardship within ourselves, our families, our friends, and our society. A lot of the times we are forced to hide our feelings, our smiles, and even each other. We have overcome so many obstacles in our relationship and can both honestly be proud to say that we were loyal to each other each in everyway. We supported each other, cried to each other and embraced everything the others had to throw at us. In 2020, I hope that homosexuals will be greatly accepted, and that the smile that my boyfriend and I both share today will be appreciated in its deepest meaning. LOVE. If people in 2006 could only understand that love is not limited to man and woman then the gap between our society of gays and straights would be at a minimum.”

Most people would expect this to be categorized in the time capsule as love. I wanted to put it there at first, but decided to put it under HOPE instead.

[transferred from myspace blog] original date: Septermber 8, 2006

ok. I’m just sitting here in my office trying to be all cute and pretending to work. I then get a phone call from my mom to see how I am doing. Then out of know where, she says “before you get in trouble with your dad, change the picture of you kissing the hispanic boy.” I suddenly froze! WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED!!! How did she see the pic? Haha, this is scary. I asked her the pic from where? She said the cell phone. OMB! I wonder if she think we were playing around being “foolish” on the pic or if she actually knows i’m gay.  She didn’t sound worried of anything, just really calm. creepy. comment please.