One of my bestfriends finally came back into town, this time for good. I’m so glad he’s back. We were catching up on over 2 to 3 months of gossip since we last talked and damn this guy was busy. He met someone while he was living in his new area, a guy whom after a few weeks told him that he loved him… my friend had yet to respond. I think it’s amazingly fast and scary how young couples these days are falling in love… and if it even is in fact, love. I have to admit though, when I first told BJ I loved him it was on our third or fourth month and even then I knew it was too early. I didn’t know I was going to say it, nor did I ever want to use that word with anyone, but my family… I felt something though… lust, admiration maybe? I didn’t know what it was exatly. This one day, it just happen to be that exact moment that BJ made me laugh and made me happy in such a way I haven’t felt for a long time, did I mention I love you. BJ being modest and all decides not to hear it, or at least pretended, and asked me “what did you say?” My heart suddenly grew cold. What did I just do? BJ knew what I said. He kept pestering me to answer him… I felt like he wanted to hear it, but then again he could had use it as an excuse to break up with me. After a moment of realizing what just happened my heart grew warm and cozy again and told him, I love you. Because as early as it was, I did love him. For making me feel safe, for making me smile… for telling me with the utmost honesty when we were still friends, and I was sad, that he’ll protect me. That’s why I loved him after 3 of 4 months. Am I as stupid as all those people who fall in love too early? Am I as subjectable as them all on whether a lasting relationship can be created? The answer is No. Why? That’s up to you all to decide and tell your story.

Among us information system students, well… for those who actually decide to do stuff with their skills, we, in the process become a little too confident in ourselves.

“The way I set up our systems is the only way that will work… no one can do it better!”

Why do we think this way? Why must we be a know-it-all? And IF, God forbid, we are wrong the first thing we do is blame the hardware and/or software. As students we are more likely to set up our own server that is totally unreliable to host websites than pay an actual hosting company 10 bucks a month to handle it. Is there something wrong with our head? Or do we just love the risk of heart attacks and the highblood pressure? I don’t know…

If anything else, we are also the laziest people in the industry. There is completely nothing for us to do 90% of the time. Like right now i’m sitting in my office hoping a giant storm hits so that the power goes out, so that I may walk around acting all important although knowing the backup power will kick in right before the UPS system drains. I just love hearing “the servers down” for some odd reason. Does this make me a bad IT student? No, it doesn’t. It’s people like us that companies reply on. They make us think we’re important because they don’t know how to power cycle a printer, start up the computer  in bios mode, or think the network is down simply because their computer doesn’t turn on. IT rules the business place… I guess I have every right to be confident after all.

I just put up two new sections: legal and photos. Please take a quick glance at the legal section and also check out my photo section. Don’t forget to comment! :-) If for some reason the photo section stops working or whatever it’s because i’m still playing around with it. I’m still not sure on what gallery software I want to be using. Thanks.

Or that’s apparently the way it should be as some coupled partners put it especially when it comes to writing about relationships. Everywhere I turn I get questions like “should you be writing about this, is he ok with it, should you really mention that?” and what makes it even worse is the boyfriend himself is acting like the country China and censoring me.

“Don’t write that! Are you crazy?!!”

You sign a moral contract when you engage in a relationship. It’s almost the same thing like getting a job… you are limited to everything until you just decide to give it up. You can now NOT look at porn, read sex stories, get on myspace, get on a gay dating website and last but not least, you can’t write about your relationship unless the partner looks good. Is there really a moral limit to how much or what you can write about when it comes to issues on relationship? People can blog away about technology all they want… but it doesn’t offend anyone unless of course it’s the whole linux vs. windows debate. How does this rule apply when writing a blog period?

Blogging to explore my inner self and basically just to brag. I understand the boundaries in terms of not giving out too much personal information and stuff and I kindly adhere to that. However, it’s kind of hard to write about anything regarding relationships when you can’t share your life story the way it was meant to be told. Doing so will take it all out of prospective. Don’t you think? I write about my life because in my opinion, which has clearly been backed and supported by people that I’ve met, people that contacted me, and even random people from the area, I have a unique relationship… the kind where the couples are monogamous,you know… a real gay relationship. I love the way my relationship is going, the way my life is headed so I write about all the good… AND all the bad.

So do I choose to change my blog content just to make him happy, or continue to stick to the main purpose of my site… to share my life stories? I would appreciate any comments.

Well, you know what’s going through my head… lol. No pun intended. For those of you who are wondering this was merely for homoerotic photo purposes. Plus i’m a little too high anyways.

Update: China has spoken and he said “if you want to look like the bitch, leave it like that… LOL”.

It was the scariest morning drive of my life heading to Austin! Not only was it tornado raining, but all the cars were going like 100 mph’s and I even saw a dead bambi! The first deer I saw in my life and it had to be dead. :-\ I also saw flipped over cars and 18 wheelers on its side…. yup.

When I finally got to Austin, I was still kinda lost and was trying to follow the UT Austin signs. Mapquest sucked ass! I was looking for a US Hwy 81 as stated on mapquest, but I remember seeing that all the way back in Waco, Tx. After about 30 mins I finally got to the Thompson Conference Center and met up with BJ and Sean. BJ and I then went out to eat… or at least I ate while BJ was feeding a squirrel straight from his hand! It was like the UT Arlington squirrels, but less Al-Qaeda like.

After that, BJ and I went walking around the campus, and damn was it big! I’ve been to UT Austin before but never got the opportunnity to walk around it because we were so restricted back in high school compared to these guys. The whole campus had to have been the size of Grand Prairie! They had gigantic buildings that still stood from back in the days. The architecture was breathtaking, and their bronze statuaries were priceless. They even had a museum in the middle of campus. The walk was beautiful and I had so much fun! Though this was only a 1 day thing, it was the first vacation I had in over 3 years. Best of all was the opportunity I got to spend my day with my baby, BJ, seeing some of the most beautiful landscape and buildings with historical values. He didn’t have to spend it with me… he could had been sitting around with his friends waiting for their scores (he got a 2 at state), but he was with me and i’m very thankful he greeted me so cheerfully.

As beautiful as the University of Texas at Austin is, I would not attend that school if my life depended on it… and I mean that literally. I would love to live in a city that looks like the campus, probably some place in Maine, or maybe the set of Gilmore girls… but I think the school is too big for any actual college education to occur and even if it does… a mediocre one. UT Arlington is big enough for me. Go Mavs!

in the Dallas Forth Worth area anyways. Take a look at our charts to see the huge spike in unique traffic/visits we received this month alone which were proudly powered by SiteMeter.com. Notice the 2pt increase in visitors for May as I was copying one chart after the next. Thanks to all my visitors for all their support in helping raise my rank! Don’t forget to please check out my awesome sponsors located on the right side bar. They help pay to keep this site up so please visit their site. If you have change to spare…. even $1, please donate to help my site. Companies can also donate for advertisement space. Much love.

-Trey

Yay my baby finally graduated! :-)

I am so glad that I’m stubborn and didn’t listen to BJ and go to the Nokia Theatre at the time he suggested. BJ was telling us that it’s going to fill up fast and was so determined (that he was right) that if we don’t get there early it’s going to fill up and stuff. Well for one we have reserved seatings so what would be the point of going at 8:30am when the ceremony took place at 10am? How can I lose my seat? Anyhow, I didnt’ listen… and I got there on time, found great parking, and was even in my seat five minutes before it started. I was so excited, though I didn’t get to sit with his family or anything. I hope BJ heard me when, being all ghetto and stuff, I yelled “BJ whoo” during the silence before the pledge of allegiance. I even yelled his name before BJ sang his last song with the choir. After 45 mins of the commencement they finally called BJ’s name and I was like “whoooo!00000000000000000000000000!! Great, now I can go use the rest room.” As I was leaving, the two couple next to me was like “oh you’re leaving already? You have no one else to yell for? What about BJ? You’re leaving BJ?”  That did nothing but brought a smile to my face. After the graduation we had some few photo ops with BJ and then his mom treated me and the family to lunch at Olive Garden in Arlington, Tx. I was lucky enough to even have BJ ride with me on the way to the resturant.

  

BJ and I have been together for 1 1/2 years and i’m so glad that I found a guy who is commited, sweet, caring and throws out everything at me and for me, sometimes literally, as BJ has. He’s gone through some tough times this past 2 years with personal problems, but I’m proud to say, and see, him prevail in everything that he wanted to do. Even sometimes in my ‘better’ judgement. I’m very luck to have him in my life… something of which I will never regret for any reasons that may arise. I love him.

BJ’s currently in Austin, Tx right now for the State Solo & Ensemble Choir competition. I had originally planned to go out to Club S4 tonight, but plans have changed. So to all the people that I’ve told that I was gonna appear tonight i’m sorry… i have something better to attend, in my opinion anyways. Throughout the years that i’ve been dating BJ, him and I have always talked about me going to surprise him at his out of town events. Everytime I’ve tried something else came up. I haven’t even gone once to his cross country meet which I feel very bad about. So, since tomorrow is his official last involvement with highschool activities, i’m heading to Austin around 7am to surprise him at The University of Texas at Austin. Yup, pray I get there safely since I suck at directions. 

(A picture of BJ in Canada. Damn he looks good.)

As stated earlier the night was kinda ruin by those assholes, but asides from that, the night was pretty good. It was generally a great day for me, BJ just graduated, and now I’m spending the night with him and stuff. Alhough Project Graduation didn’t go without it’s flaw, it was pretty fun… they had dancing, this rodeo thing, and this obstacle course that BJ beat me at because he made me bounce off the thing with all his weight. :-) Another good thing is i’m slowly getting use to his ex. Don’t know why that is really important, but I know it’s a good thing somehow. Again, congrats baby!!!